I hate life.
I get no relief from debts.
I get no relief from debts.
I took out bill relief. had no preexisting conditions. a week later I tore my stomach getting my son out of a bath. i had to have surgery for it. NOw IT LOOKS like I am not going to get any relief for my debts.
i started out with life, with a healthy bank account & savings etc from both nana & my folks & working hard.
I have always been a hard worker til the kids came a long.
I lost my first daughter 12 yrs ago. then had 3 more kids,
I on my last caesar. I had a trainee anathestis he kept saying opps sorry. while putting a needle for the epidural in my back. I ended up with slip discs & fainting & passing out. high blood pressure..
I put everything on hold in my life to take care of my kids. make sure they have what they need.
I also had the factory shut which meant now I find instead of having monthly once a week in a month now it 2 times in a month.
we had hope to buy a house one time. but then got a tax bill. was not expected. hubby said it was my fault.
so i have been paying that back.
then I have been paying back telstra, electricity and also a credit card I took out to compensate my repayments.
I didnt get to lodge a tax return as i waited for my hubby now centrelink say I have a debt. So I must repay them $14,500 & I am going to lose money there,
everyday I have someone asking for charity. I wish I could give something but I cant I dont know how to get out of this cycle of debt its horrible.
I thought My hubby & I were going to separate a few times.
I tried to take up an Ironing business, to compensate my loses just so. kids dont miss out.
My hubby blames me for everything.
he gives me no loving nothing. he gives me a cold shoulder. sometimes he is home for dinner.
he goes golfing, spearfishing or takes a day down the coast
its his down time. what do I get. I clean & clean & clean.\
I had surgery he decided to creat an issue as to why I didnt get help with the kids. he is the father wish he would help out.. he hangs around most days anyways. He never gives me a break.
If I take the kids to the beach after school I am told I am a messy slacker My place is a mess.
I encourage the kids to make their beds & clean their rooms. try to get them to do something.
I thought all three kids were in the car yesterday. I had visitors coming for dinner.
I have no working stove as the landlord has told me after xmas it will be fixed.. so everything goes in the oven. which I had going while i went to the beach. my kids werent cooperating & so I drove the 4wd onto the sand. as I was in a hurry. & wouldnt you know it the cant get the 4wd out. now looks like the car is stuffed. My hubby again blaming me for having some fun.
thats ok I dont have friends anyway. I am often asked who am I close to, Well my hubby put a stop to that
along time ago. i have had many people to my place for dinners & partys & even tried to organize ssomething for my kids. funny when I do everyone always has plans already.
I dont know when life is gonna take a break & let me be,
I love to do volunteer work myself In the community near me. even that has come to a holt as my hubby thinks I am being a lazy slacker.
Thats just it I no longer have a life. I had joined a gym to get fit & get some strength, no I am just selfish for going to womans gym.
I have an old Italian pappa stalking me & My hubby laughs it off.
I have no Idea how to get around life.
I want to get out of my bills & be free, if anyone has any ideas. Or even if I should beg for some funds I dont know. doesnt seem me.
Life is lonely & damming. I have had so many people over but there is never a return.
my heart is broken, my soul is torn & I have no peace & no relief. I havent a had vacation where I just chilled out in ages. but you can but the man has he sees to it. tells me I am not organized. he blames me for everything/
I just want out. But how can I be free. I cant even have a CD player my hubby saw to that too. so no more music.
I had nice jewellery & yep all thats gone too,
I am so down. & lost I do not know how to find my way through all the bull...
